Wednesday 21 March 2012

Where Did Lunch Go?

I wonder if anyone ever died of hunger?

Well, today I darn near came close to finding out! You see, there's this canteen right beside my office where staff go to eat; the woman's food is pretty good so I quite frankly look forward to lunch time...
She didn't come today though. Apparently she isn't making enough to cover costs and has decided to cast her oats elsewhere.

Fine! Only, she didn't warn us! So there I was anxiously waiting for lunch time so I could dash to the canteen and have my belly's worth of food. But no, I darn near died.

I finally got food to eat though. How can you tell when a married man fancies you? There is this married friend I have. We met on twitter and I thought he was a really kind and decent man so I added him to my bbm, recently though, I've been getting these 'vibes'. Maybe it's all in my head though, well I hope so. Would be really awkward if he started making moves on me. Ugh.

Why do girls lie about having a boyfriend when they are so obviously single? How ironic that you have to pretend to be hitched to hitch a man right? Yeah. I thought so too. Ever since I broke up with the sleazy creature that I used to date, I've been very wary about getting together with men. I quite fankly cannot deal with the nuances of dating a Lagos boy (this is a post for another day).

Anyway, this guy I met this month has been flashing neon lights at me; you know, blowing hot and cold. He eventually asked if I was dating and I gave the age-old covenient answer; 'it's complicated' ha! Don't roll your eyes yet abeg. This dude is Yoruba, smart, intelligent and has a bright future but he's Yoruba! And he doesn't exactly fit into my usual TFH(tall fair and handsome) spec.

Oh well, we have another date today. Will see if he sets my dear heart aflutter.

Cheerios booskis.

Tuesday 20 March 2012

The Me I'd Like To Be

Never known nobody else
That knows me even more than
I know myself

The opening lines of Keysha Cole's 'Better Me' resounds in my head as I sit here trying to remember who exactly I am...
Weird isn't it? I know who I was, I know who I want to be, but who I am right now? There lies the confusion. Let's not confuse what I am with who I am tho, the former is easy to lay a finger on.

I'd like to pin this down to MPD-multiple personality disorder, but even I in all my eccentricity cannot really lay claims to such a complexity of personalities.

Does it happen to you? Sometimes I feel like I'm outside my body, watching myself do things that are ordinarily out of character. It makes me wonder atimes.

So this is me trying to rediscover myself; daily, weekly, bi-weekly or even monthly pieces of me. Hopefully, just hopefully, I'll find me.


Join me?